Nothing Special Here, YET!

The Push; KEEP GOING!

She has disappeared. Once, she lived out there to be seen.  Yet over the preceding years she has walked herself inward. She, was never really actually seen by many or even a few.  For most, do not actually see.  To see her is to be a seer.  A looker does not see.  A seer sees beyond. She can sit in front of, next to or stand before another or many and still be unseen. This is mostly ok with her.  She is aware that "other" hears only the reverberation of the echo chamber within their own cranial cave. They see the inward facing mirrors reflecting their own image.

Many are not awake, they are sleeping past 7 with too much distraction clogging up the port holes.

Example: How many people will actually read this?  Not many, I presume.  Further, for those that read it, who will look deeper to consider what this message is about.  Even fewer, I am sure. How many will take the next step, contemplate it, apply it to life and offer a thoughtful reply back? Likely, 0!!!!

For each word I write, fewer will continue on. 

One thing I have learned in life, the further I grow, the lonelier it gets!  

Long gone are the days of mindless friend play and frolicking around naively with a partner that pretends to care.  The random exploratory adventure journeys and personal retreats have dissipated into lush old growth forests of wisdom.  Few venture into those forests these days. 

The times have changed...Hey, Bob Dylan, it’s time to rewrite the song!

In all honesty, I have nothing to lose.  I have already lost it all and it seems no one is really paying attention. 

Persistence and Perseverance

Through the thicket I am here, persevering.  Over the last 5 years, I have lost my career, my passion, my community, my friends, my entire financial grounding, my relationship, my sense of wellbeing, my reason for being…. MY Oh MY – it has been a big blowout along the road of life and there have NOT been many people stopping to help.  Those that have are fleeting feathers in the wind, little moments of hope.  Yet the wind blows and on they go and here I AM. It has all been stripped away and I have been in deep reflection around the circumstances of my life.  It has been emotionally hard, exhausting, lonely and deeply challenging.

A testament to my character, I took a HUGE risk that resulted in Success followed by a HUGE loss at a major juncture of life that happened to coincide with circumstances beyond my control.

They said this Marathon was 26.2 miles yet that says mile 77

What the heck is going on here?

As this year moves toward the shortest day of the year, the longest night, I mark the Winter Solstice as the true bridge.  A few years ago, I felt the Darkest Night. I remember leading up to the Winter Solstice feeling emotionally like I wasn’t going to make it.  It was a frightening place to be in that barren land.  I knew that if I just made it to the Winter Solstice, the light would begin to return beyond that moment.  Getting there felt like a grueling journey. It didn't instantly get better. It is now that I reflect and realize that was the peak low. That was the threshold I had to cross. Since then, I have been in a growth cycle. 

Friends, I have been going through a major transformation called the Dark Night of the Soul.  This is not my first one, however this is seemingly the longest one I have been through. Over the last few months, I am finally feeling like I am moving through the last few stages and it took me making a choice this year to really go inward and do some deep work. 

The Work? 

This year I did what I do when in a transformational process, I channeled my creative gifts into sources of healing and change.

This year, 2025...

Has been about endings. Bringing things to a close.  I knew the Astrology for this year was rocky, so I prepared myself to go deep into the under-water aquifers and travel the root system to tend the creative process by seeing things through, not letting them sit neglected.

If I wanted to move the lever, I was going to have to PUSH. 

An astrologer I listen to earlier this year suggested they way through this year, was to move something along in our life even though it may not be easy to do so, commenting that we would be happy we had moved it along the following year.  I repeatedly made journal entry’s that simply said, “KEEP GOING”.  Nothing more.  I had nothing more to give.  I felt like I was barely hanging on.  No part of me felt motivated.  I did not have the energy nor the inspiration, nor the support system. I can not even begin to express how challenging this has been.  Furthermore, most of my efforts to create, share, market, offer, do, be - have fallen flat. No one seems to be paying attention. There has been no success, no reward, no response.  Yet, others are telling me of their successes. Which has been deeply painful to see others grow and succeed while I am not. I have felt like GIVING UP. Yet I kept telling myself, “Keep going” with the Astrologer’s voice in my head, “you will be happy you did”. 

Trust

I am not here to write you a success story with a happy ending, YET. I am here to tell you the authentic truth. 

This is Explicit Content: 

Everything up until this moment has asked me to have upmost trust. 

I have been persisting with absolutely no reward or confirmation of change.  Yes, I have been questioning how much further do I continue to go, how many more times do I repeat this before something actually changes or I stop and do something else?   

There have been some situations, relationships, connections and projects that no matter how badly I wanted to continue, make happen or see it through; to be in integrity with my heart and who I am becoming I had to let them drop this year trusting that what is divinely aligned will be.  I had to be willing to set things down that may have been for me at one point, yet are not any longer. And.....For those that I chose to PUSH through, regardless of whether it was to give proper closure to something that is inevitably coming to an end or whether it has been to steward the blossoming of a new fruit tree; it has required:

PERSISTANCE + PATIENCE + PERSEVERANCE + TRUST +

SHOWING UP REGARDLESS OF condition of the self or circumstances.

For 2025,

1. I committed to write 12 Blog Posts, this is number 11, posted on a 2 day of the 12^th month. The 12^th Blog will be posted after the juncture of the Winter Solstice, once I walk over the bridge consciously with choice this year having Pushed myself through the birthing channel. Each Blog post has also been voice recorded and posted to my Sound Cloud Channel.

2. I committed to post regular content: I posted 168 videos over my YouTube Channel and Instagram Channel. Making regular posts to all of the media Outlets.

3. I finished by Oracle Deck that is now getting ready for proofing, publishing and printing.

4. I wrote a book that is going to proofing, publishing and printing.

5. I wrote the Luminous Life Journey Journal to support life change that is going to proofing, publishing and printing.

6. I created both Luminous Life Journey and Sacred Fire Dance merchandise in addition to rebranding Sacred Fire Dance.

7. I designed a pair of yoga pants that is for sale on my online Printify store along with themed Candles, Mission Upgrade Mugs, my ART, Greetings Cards and Sweatshirts.

8. I turned some of my art into greeting cards and got them into a crystal store for sale.

9. I published the Courage Builds Confidence Journal that is available for sale on my Printify store.

10. I paid off a car.

11. I remained steady with doing readings inside the crystal store even though many days I sat there for hours with no readings which also equates to no earnings.

12. I am currently in the process of finishing the Learn to Spin Poi virtual program which has taken way longer than I anticipated to build.  I have wanted to quit.  I doubt it is worth the effort.  It has required me editing 77 videos that I did not film. I have been editing them on my old I Phone and broken computer not just once, but 3 times.  Some of the videos are 27 minute long and filmed with a higher quality camera than my devices which means that my devices crash. It is physically painful, time consuming. I had imagined this not being so painful and having collaborative team share the work effort. I imagined feeling supported and being able to support. I imagined it would have been done 1.5 years ago. Yet it is what it is and I am grateful for what it is, the support that I do have and with that, I am here too showing up where I had not thought I would need to in order to bring this Sea Ship into Port. 

I do not write all of this to brag or say look at what I have accomplished, I am looking for Good Jobs or sympathy! I share it because all of the above has take MASSIVE effort with no REWARD other than…. A few weeks ago, when I got a journal in the mail, then the book, then the yoga pants, then the other journal and each time I got one of the test print versions I felt this moment of triumph.  Of course, I didn't make these for me, I made them to be a support tool for others. To get to this point however, took a lot.

What I want? Is support. Not encouragement. I want this to have been worth it because it brings value, joy, inspiration and joy to your life. Because it helps you PUSH instead of Avoid.

It’s not complete, it’s not over, the problems are not solved.  Yet, I know that I have at least seen it through to this moment where I can say I have something to show for it. 

What it’s worth? Well… that remains to be seen. A seer SEES. 

What does support look like?

One of the biggest challenges an artist, healer, creative person faces is whether another values their creation enough to support and invest in it. I have brought all of this along to this point.  Now, for it to grow further, it needs support. This is where I prepare to take my hands off the wheel and see what happens. 

Before I do, however there are still a few more steps to push forward.

It’s not over until it’s over.  Time will tell whether all of this work was to bring proper closure to what needed burial or what was being cultivated to bear fruit.  

In conclusion, as I move toward the Winter Solstice, I am making my final push on the last few projects to close out this year knowing that I did not waver.  There were no excuses, nor procrastination, there was simply a showing up regardless of the circumstances.  This took flexibility and creativity. I realize that this is NOT the norm.  For most rant on with excuses and chat about procrastination, avoidance and all of the reasons why. 

If you want to move the lever, my friend you are going to need to push.  When momma goes into labor the doctor doesn’t say, “procrastinate” or “avoid”! NO NO NO! The Doctor says, PUSH! So, stop being NORM and START being yourself!

What is it that you are choosing to let go of and what is it that you are choosing to GROW? For the next few days are the last few days to send the end into the fading night in preparation to align with the true light of the Aqualine Double Diamond Sun. 

That which you focus on grows. 

Now is the time, this IS the last moment of a moment like this one.  We are upon the end of the end of the end. 

Keep your eyes wide. The chance won't come again. The times have changed!

If you want to support my Printify Store, please visit (the Yoga Pants will be live SOON): https://luminous-life-journey.printify.me/

If you are local in Sacramento, head into Sunlight of the Spirit where you may purchase the Greetings Cards and or one of my Original One of a Kind pieces of art or receive a reading by me on the 2nd Saturday or 4th Sunday.

Stay tuned for the release date of my Oracle Deck, Journal and Book in 2026!

In reverence, walk in beauty, and breathe in the divine love frequency!

Sequoia Raven Moon

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