Hold Your Horses

When the signal isn’t GO, the most powerful move may be to wait.

Ready Set….. Wait for it….

GO!

As I sit here writing, the energy is moving into this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and I am in reflection. This year so far has been about pausing within the space. This moment is no different.

My truth is that I crave change. I am not one of those people who thrives on the same old routine. I get fidgety when a day goes by without some kind of notable shift. I like confirmation. I like momentum. I like the feeling that I am on the right track because something is happening.

I think back to all of the moments where I took big risks — flipping tables in a flash and thrusting myself into the next life cycle. For many years I lived in constant flux.

That was my comfort zone.

I remember deciding to move into my bus. It was a clear, distinct yes-this-way feeling. No hesitation. No doubt. Just alignment.

I also remember walking into a telemarketing job where I was making decent money, but it was soul sucking. I walked through the door, saw the cubicles, heard the scripts being read, the celebration bells ringing for quotas hit. I stopped in my tracks. My manager walked up and said, “You’re done, aren’t you?” I replied confirming that I couldn’t be there. He told me he knew the day would come. He said I didn’t belong there. That was a heck YES moment. It was clear. It was witnessed.

There have been many of those moments in my life — profound YES signals where all systems were go.

Lately, it has not been that. It has been a lot of kinda’s, maybe’s, could be’s. There hasn’t been a distinct ignition. I feel like I am waiting. Busy, yet deeply bored. Longing for something. For what, I ask? I am not sure. It’s a feeling.

Everyone keeps talking about how everything is changing — life, systems, structures — and they are. Yet my external reality has not shifted in a way that gives me that visceral GO NOW sensation.

And so I pause.

There is wisdom here.

First: Know when to leap and when to wait.

All of the answers may not be there yet. There can be a drive to take action simply to relieve the discomfort of stillness. But if all cylinders are not firing, ease back until there is coherence. Do not make a hasty move just to feel movement. Keep the horses in the stable, for now.

Second: Doubt is not necessarily bad, it’s a signal

I used to get irritated when people told me, “Trust yourself.” It felt like a nothing burger. No guidance. No relief. Just vague spiritual advice.

The truth is, in my true YES moments, there was no doubt.

The signal was clean. Clear. Unmistakable.

When doubt appears, do not negate it. It is showing you something important. It may not be telling you to stop forever. It may be asking you to look deeper. Doubt can be an ally. It can be the indicator that something is not fully aligned yet.

If you have the capacity to doubt yourself, you also have the capacity to trust yourself.

They may simply be opposite sides of the same coin.

If you are hesitating, then hesitate. If it is false fear or distortion, this is your opportunity to see it and shift it. But if it is misalignment, then honor the pause.

This is why this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse feels significant to me. Rather than imprinting someone else’s interpretation onto it, I am choosing to experience it directly.

If you are having a big YES moment, then you know what to do. Go. Leap. Trust it.

But if you are not on all systems go, then perhaps this moment is about nourishment and restraint.

This last week I had a simple yet profound experience. I was sitting in my meditation space — not meditating, just sitting. Something opened. A direct source connection. Everything felt clear. It was subtle and expansive at the same time. It lasted for the day and slowly faded. For a few days after, I tried to find it again. To recreate it. To force it forward. It didn’t work.

It was like a field that opened and closed on its own timing, like a flower.

The lesson was simple and revolutionary: The act is to not act.

1. Stop.

2. Pause.

3. Allow.

The most risky potent move you can make

is to hold your horses when your ego wants to bolt.

There is a difference between momentum and alignment. When the YES comes, it is unmistakable. Until then, stay with yourself.

Journal Questions:

1. Where in my life am I trying to manufacture a “GO” because I am uncomfortable with the pause?

2. What does doubt feel like in my body when it is fear, and what does it feel like when it is misalignment?

3. If I trusted the timing of my life completely, what would I allow to remain unresolved right now?

Small Ritual:

Tonight, sit quietly for ten minutes. No phone. No music. No journaling. Just sit.

Place one hand on your heart and one on your lower belly. Feel your breath. Notice any urge to get up, fix, plan, or move.

Whisper to yourself: “I move when it is aligned. Until then, I pause.”

Do nothing else.

Let the field open on its own timing.

With divine love and coherence,

Sequoia